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Federal Territory Day

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 01:37:46 GMT

So...how are you enjoying the holiday? Especially since our Selangor friends don't actually have a day off today. :)

I've blogged to gloat.

Too bad I can't enjoy it since I'm in the damn office. :(

Strangely Liberating

Sat, 29 Nov 2008 13:58:34 GMT

It's been almost close to 9 months now. You've been in my life and I've constantly been leveraging on you. I didn't quite like the thought of having on in the first place but now it'd seem that I'm actually pretty dependent on you. It's really been the first time since I've not had you along to a place I've gone away from this year. It's strangely liberating and quite refreshing actually. Although there are just as many different distractions but for once it's not because of you.

At any rate, I'm blogging from a different country! It's been such a long time since I can say I've been able to do that because it feels as though I haven't really been away from Malaysia for the longest time and it's really great to get away! And it helps that it's kind of winter-ish at the moment cause I've also kind of forgotten how miserable it is to be cold and hungry. Tokyo's got nothing on Michigan in terms of crappy weather but still, I think I've completely underestimated just how cold cold can be. I've only got...minimal thermal stuff which just means that my pictures will have the same person, with the same clothes...with just differing backgrounds. Haha

Bit disapointed so far though, I haven't seen that many oddly dressed people (odd by my own standards, not really judging on a larger scale) and the girls here don't seem to be all that hot. Maybe cause I'm hanging out in the wrong area. But tomorrow promises to be a better day seeing as we'll be hitting the more shopping-type district. So lets hope there's more to be seen over there.

Strange strange thoughts are entering my mind nowadays. I think I'm getting old. *sigh* Think winter weather plus american movie propaganda always brings out the oddly romantic thoughts. :D I disagree if you say it doesn't matter where you are, but more who you're with...because if you're in a hot, humid, dirty place...it just can't compare with some of the sights and sounds of a different setting.

Anyways, time to catch up on some shut-eye here. Nothing like cold weather to assist in snuggling into the bed. :D Oh, this is also my FIRST time sitting on a toilet seat that's been warmed. A most pleasant feeling I must say. Definitely beats the bite of a cold toilet seat early in the morning.

The door is ajar...

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 14:52:31 GMT

It's strange...when they say that when a door closes, a window opens...

And I mean this in the most literal sense because there's nothing quite as scary when you enter into a bathroom with one of the doors of the stall slightly ajar with the toilet seat covered....to me, it can only mean one thing (this is only really applicable to a shared public/semi-public bathroom)...the massacre from the previous occupant is either still there..be it visibly or the 'essence' is still lingering around.

So you've basically got two options here, hope and pray the other stall (if this option exists) is available and use that one; or hope that whatever reason that you need to use the loo for can wait and you can revisit this later...when the storm has passed and the calm has settled.

Unfortunately there may not be windows in the office loos...*sigh*

Either that or people should learn to flush...thoroughly. (to the theme of Lionel Richie) ..."onceeee....twiceeee... threee timeeeess..." is really not such a bad thing. More civic mindedness than anything is all I ask for.

The audacity

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 22:46:33 GMT

Sometimes, I wonder if you even know the gravity and repercussions of your decision(s) and action(s), I don't think you're truly and fully aware of what you say or do and the impact it may have on the others.

I don't think you had a right to say what you said nor have done what you did but ultimately, at the point in time, it happened and more so for finding justification and rationalization in the decision, there's nothing that can be done anymore. So when they say what's done is done, it's true. The only way to move away from this is to look forward and try not to let it seep to deeply and allowing it to fester.

Sure, certain events and every day stresses might have pushed you to the breaking point, but I don't think that that's a sufficiently good enough reason/excuse to absolve yourself of blame.

Can things ever go back to when it was free-er and easier? I sincerely doubt it, because as much as people can distance themselves from the situation, ultimately, if it's significant enough, people won't/can't forget.

Let me just say, it definitely touched a nerve.

On to more interesting news, I was just recently contacted online by someone claiming to have been my teacher while I was in school. Now, to be completely honest, I've absolutely no recollection who this man/lady is. But I do give credit where it's due to facebook because it really does help break down the walls (when used correctly). Of course some people tend to go overboard with the friendliness....which is a story for another day. :D

More dreams...

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 05:45:03 GMT

I made a resolution earlier some time this year that I'd actually try to cut back on the swearing and I think for a while it was working. Unfortunately, over the course of time, I think I've forgotten to remind myself of the promise I've made to myself. Which leads me to my dream, of which I was ... in a most non-aggressive way but using coarse language while speaking to my female colleague in the office. Presumably my swearing attracted my superior's attention because he stood up and made his way over to tell me off for using foul language and being unprofessional in the work place. Interestingly enough, it was an extremely vivid dream with the intonation and pattern of speech matching the person to the tee. Think that it's been a gentle reminder to myself above all else to cut back on my swearing

Another one bites the dust

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 14:24:48 GMT

Just to document this monumental day.

Zaid Ibrahim, Lehmann, Merrill and AIG.

*sigh*

I'll add my thoughts later if/when I have the time.

Strange dreams

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 08:08:56 GMT

Lately, I've been having a couple of strange dreams...not entirely sure what is the message that my subconscious is trying to get across to me but nonetheless, I think some of them warrant a mention

First one, I'm somewhere in this mall in KL when it occurs to me that life is just not working out how I'd like it to, so I decide to hop onto a plane to go back to the States where I somehow meet up with a couple of my friends there (who actually have graduated and are working in anywhere BUT the university place). All the same, it was pretty good to see all of them and have a chat with them. Strangest part was one of the hugs I gave to one person in the dream (lets make clear that it was a female person), just never thought she'd appear there.

Second one, I'm basically out for a walk or coffee or something when I'm speaking to this other female person and sharing with her some of my (atypical) relationship stories when it comes pouring out that I'm totally infatuated with her. And she, in return tells me a story about burger and fries. How she actually has a man in her life already and that'd be equivalent to her burger while the rest of the men in her life are like fries, nothing but a condiment to the main course. As embarrassing as this story sounds because ultimately, I think she's trying to tell me that she's not interested but I'm still putting this down here because I thought it's interesting how my mind twisted and warped to come up with an anecdote to explain the scenario. Thoroughly impressive I'd say. (Again, the female person here shall remain unnamed but again, thought it made the dream more interesting by virtue of her being there)

At any rate, the people in dream 1 and dream 2 are completely unrelated and different persons.

As my final thoughts for today, I've actually been wondering if the sacrifices some people put in now to establish themselves to have a career at the expense of say, a working relationship with their friends, colleagues and other loved ones is really worth it. Some of us are more willing to step on others, take advantage of others to get ahead in life. The rest of us, are slightly more passive, hopefully able to go where the water brings them in order to find some kind of balance but at times, finding themselves stretched too thinly between all the responsibilities of being 'nice'. Of course there's no real answer to whichever path you wish to take because there isn't a right one and both comes with painful lessons which I guess have to be learnt.

Which just begs the question, if karma doesn't really exist, does that mean that nice guys/gals will always finish last?

Update - Random pics

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 09:31:23 GMT

Ah, finally taken the liberty to empty the pictures in my phone. Some of the more relevant ones are below. For your viewing pleasure (decided not to put these up on FB)

Guess who's having a bad day? Lol.

Please note spelling error

Please also note that this is how you DO NOT fill in the form. It's only supposed to be a 1-liner but obviously the idiot filling it in filled it wrongly. In my defence, the separated it into two lines. Which I thought meant different things. haha. They still processed the form though.

A true family member...always sleeping in the car

And finally...some pics from ho's Birthday bash @ Vintry

Interesting news

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:36:03 GMT

I've just received interesting news...I'm not entirely sure how to share it with the rest of the world nor how to deal with the situation.

Think I'll be in for a rough couple of days depending on the timing of the impending situation. *sigh*

Half of me is glad and happy, yet the other part is apprehensive and doubtful to see where this decision made will lead me. Urgh.

Minyak Lintah

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 16:07:10 GMT

For all of you who read my blog and remember what Ezra used to tell us about minyak lintah, I just saw an ad just now on tv3, approximate time was during a break during the midnight news. There was an ad for minyak lintah and how this 'guy' animation applied the liquid to his 'head' (I'm not entirely sure how symbolic this is) and then the man-animation suddenly grew all muscular.

Wrong wrong wrong...